Don't make war; make love

Parents need to stop freaking the fuck out.
And Teens need to start getting real.

Dude; everyone just needs to be happy.

Summer's almost over.
It's really making me sad.
But I'm really excited for Senior year!
I'm over all guys; and I just want to have fun.
I'm getting my hair cut today; it's going to be hot.
311 concert is Thursday.
I still hope I'm going.

I still like him.
I still don't think I have a chance with him though. 
I really wish I knew what he was thinking.
It'd be kind of nice.

I don't know where to start.
Why does summer always seem like it's going to be amazing;
It rarely is.
There's been no "amazing days"; 
Well maybe one.
But summers half way over.

I need to hang out with Lamb before he leaves;
I'm going to miss him so much.

I want to drink like no other.
I just need some alchol and I'll be fine.

I've eaten 300 calories today.
I'm just not really that hungry.

Jeff rarely answers my texts;
It's no biggie.
But all the football players are requesting me on my space.
Somethings up.
And I'm going to kill the kid if it is what I think it is.

Then there's Brett.
I like him, again.
Gay cuz I don't have a chance with him.
And I mad him really mad today.
And I probably get on his nerves on a daily basis.
So pretty much that situation makes me want to cry.

There was one good thing.
I talked to Briegh today.
She's fun and carefree.

There's just so much running through my head; but I don't know how to say it.

So I really dislike going to my cottage every weekend. 
It's not fun.
Tomorrow there's a party I want to go to.
But I don't know if I can go cuz  I might not be home.
The concert was fun last night.
I miss my sober friends though.
There more fun and deal with me.
Come talk to me guys.
My mom doesn't shut up and it's really annoying.
Oh and I'm sick; and it sucks a lot.
And my kidneys may be shutting down.
But other than that I'm cool.

I hate my dad.

Oh my gosh.
It's finally summer.
I can't even believe it, it's been a long awaited victory. 
Laying out. Sleeping. Partying. Driving. Friends. Concerts & Shows.

Summer's going to be beautiful.
And by the way, Hello Senior's 2008. 
(I still hate our senior lady shirts.)

What happened to all my friends getting along?
Why is everyone ditching everyone else?
It's not cool.
Stay true to your friends.
It's bro's before ho's.
And don't hang out with people that will get you in trouble.

Summer's coming!
I can't wait.
I need a job, I need a license.
Merit award will be worked on too.

I need a license.
Enough said.

Dang RFL was really amazing.
I had soo much fun!
I really hope everyone else had as much fun as I did.
We raised over $1,000.00 all in the process of having a ton of fun!
But I just gotta recap everything:
Sno cones
Sno balls
Brant
Mike
Strip poker
Chasing the hover disc
Glow sticks
Chase
Kevin coming and seeing me 
Cute freshman
Kendall and Tj
Jenny and her purple finger
Purple drank
Andrew and I (Are you two going out? No were friends)
Taylor singing....again
Random kid hiding above us
And sooo much more....
Get ready for RFL 2008!

I haven't updated since Spring Break so I figured I would.
Orlando was absolutley amazing.
I loved everything about it.
The boom, boom, boom!
And the arguing then "Hey Dani, do you wanna snuggle tonite?"
And the "Her dirty thong is on the bed! I'm not sleeping in this shit!"
Plus I met some cool kids from Dearborn and PA.
I can't even forget about the crazy chicks from CA, so much for CA girls being hot to guys. LMAO!
But the good stuff.
The boy I met from PA. 
His names Josh and he's amazingly adorible.
And I really hope we keep talking, he's a lot nicer than Michigan boys.
Oh and I realize guys really, really care about girls looks.
Now that I'm tan and look cute and bunch of guys started talking to me.
But I can't even wait for Relay for Life, it's in 16 days!
It's going to be amazing and I want it to come as quickly as possible.
That's all really.
If there's anything else, I'll tell you.

Breaks are always sucky.
I don't like them nor will I ever.

I want my license more than anything now.

Relay for Life is good/bad.
+++ We've gotten 15 donations from companies.
+++ Kendall & I have raised $137.50 so far.
+++ We have 1 survivor, we may have 2 by Relay.
- - - Like 3 people actually pay attention to Relay.
- - - No one else has raised money I think or answeres e-mails.
Relay is something I wait for all year.
It sounds lame, but I feel so good about myself when I do this.
Then stupid kids try to ruin it.
Also we can get t-shirts but only if everyone pays their $20.00 fee by May 4th.
I doubt it will happen.

Orlando is in two weeks.
I have a suitcase, sunglasses, and blouses.
I just need it to be April 25th.

Then Nick,
we make plans to hang out.
But it never sounds like he actually wants too.
I don't want to hang out with him if he doesn't want to be by me.

I love the spring and summer, but I'm also scared.
This is the time last year when I started getting really bad.
I've been getting upset again.
I don't want it to happen again, it was not a good time for me.
Also I really don't want mono agian.
That would blow.

It's Friday night.
I'm still failing Expos.
If I turn in all my papers I can get a D+.
Today I went to the doctors for the second time this week.
They said I have to get an ultra sound.
Sounds gay.
My sister got a hermit crab.
So my dad and I have to buy stuff for him; plus he gets a friend.
I've come to a conclusion; I have good intentions.
But I have no motivation.
And sometimes good intentions aren't enough in the world.

Last week was the ACT and MME.
They both sucked a lot.
I'll be taking the ACT again.

DECA States was last weekend.
I made it to Internationals in April.
I'm excited.

I miss my boyfriend a lot.
It feels like I don't even have one anymore.
I want to give him a big hug and kiss.

I went to the doctors today; and I have HMJ I think it's called.
It has something to do with your jaw.

I'm failing Expository Writing.
Exams are next week.

Congratulations Taylor for winning Mr. LO!

GO Lake Orion; I hope they beat Clarkston!
I like that everyone else is at the game; I'm home.
Whatever.

DECA States are next Friday; I'm beyond excited!

ACT's are next week; I'm very nervous this could determine the rest of my life.
I don't like things that lie that heavy on my shoulders; it's scary.

I start segment 2 for drivers training monday.
I want my license really bad.
I probably won't get it until June or July though.

I'm in the process of changing the name of our Relay for Life team.
No one likes the name.
So I think we might change it to "LO North Pole".
It's not creative but if people will shut up about it; I'll be fine.

Spring is in 16 days; I'm happy.
Mr. LO is Thursday night.
30 Hour Famine is Friday & Saturday.
I made yearbook for next year.     : )

I'm excited for everything. 
I've finally learned to enjoy the present and be excited for what lies ahead.

I'm really sick of people complaining how bad their lives are.
It's just a part of your life that sucks; get over it and move on.
I did.

Spring is in one month; it's the time for new life, thunder storms, and beginning of warmth.
How much more wonderful could a season be?

I'm currently working on Merit Award which is due Wednesday morning.
Yeah it sucks; but whatever.

P.S. I need to be nicer to boyfriend. I need to boost his confidence and let him win. lol. : )

Why hello stress; I've been wondering where you've been.
Homework. Merit. Dad. Valentines day. Clubs. Home.

Homework; just keeps coming and coming.
I don't have time for it all.
I need to concentrate on it; escpcially Expos.

Merit Award; is due February 21st.
There's 22 projects in all. 
I have five done i think.

Dad; is always creating stress for me.
Now he's getting back surgery and plans on making life hell.

Valentines day; I can't stand.
But I want something cute done for me.
It would be nice.
Like going to the movies or getting flowers or just something cute.

Clubs; are the only things that are keeping me happy. & nick & my friends.

Home; is just always dumb & I want to be here the least amount as possible.

Think before you Act

When you’re a teenager you think you’re unstoppable. Nothing can go wrong and you think you’re ready for absolutely anything. You don’t listen to anyone because you know you can do it. Sometimes, you’re not as strong and ready as you think.

It was a rather warm spring afternoon and school just got out. My best friend Kendall and I decided to ride the four long, hilly miles into town. We both had just gotten our first BMX bikes a couple weeks before. Mine was much better of course, because it was pink, and pink is the best color. After we took that long sweaty journey into town we met up with my other best friend Jesse. He’s very good at BMX and so I wanted him to teach Kendall and I. Jesse tried to teach us how to bunny hop, but I didn’t want to learn that. I wanted to go on the jumps and do cool tricks like him, not a stupid bunny hop. So I decided to try the jumps, but Jesse stopped me and told me I wasn’t ready for those and I’ll get hurt. 
             Later when the beautiful sun started setting Jesse decided to go home. Kendall and I decided to go to the diamond since he was now gone. The diamonds an old baseball diamond where some local kids made some jumps. Now it was my turn to try the jumps with out getting told “you’re going to get hurt.” Kendall just rode her bike around while I started to back up and get aligned with the jump. My heart started beating a little faster and I pedaled as hard as I could to try and make it over the jump. The first time my back tire just came a couple inches short from making it. I rode my pink bike back to the beginning of the jump for a second time, the exact same thing happened. The third time I just knew I was going to get it. I learned what I did wrong, so now it could only be right. I backed up started pedaling and then I blacked out. I completely missed the other side of the jump and flipped over my handle bars landing head first. My bike was wrapped around me and I laid there helpless. Kendall came running over “Emily! Emily! Are you okay? Emily!” 
                “Yeah, I’m fine.” So I slowly started getting up and tumbled around a little bit. I felt really dizzy and light headed, plus my head was killing me. I jump back on my bike and try to ride my bike but realize my shoulder is absolutely killing me. Kendall calls my mom and tells her what happened. My mother absolutely freaked out, she didn’t want me riding the bike in the first place now this. My shoulder started swelling and my mom took me to the emergency room.
                 The whole ride there my shoulder hurt more than anything’s ever hurt before. I sat there and waited, the nurse had me explain what had happened and she yelled at me for not wearing a helmet because I could have really hurt myself. Next this doctor came in and she looked like she could be my grandma. They took x-rays of my shoulder and determined I bruised it really bad. They gave me a sling and a pink balloon and I went home for the night.
                Even now when I lay down I can pop my shoulder out of socket. I get to live with that because I tried something before I was ready for it. I scared the crap out of my mother and my best friend because I wanted to be cool and do tricks too. Now I think a little more before I try something new.

I <3 Sledding.

And my friends.